Journey: Spotting a New Moon in the Sky

“Guten Tag!”

>Yes, German greetings

So I’ve probably grown this strange-inexplicable weird uncured disease that makes me unconsciously addicted to blogging. Haha, should go to some blogging rehab! Anyways.

So its New Year’s Eve [sarcastic yay] everyone is probably getting major hangovers tonight and having a wonderful time somewhere counting down to the New Year-2010. For some reason, seems like any other day… L of a year it was. LOL weird how we always say- “It’s gonna be a better year” yet we seem to find something to make it unpleasant. I guess its just those inexplicable reasoning’s like when we unconsciously say “Bless You” after someone sneezes. Just kidding. Fail at metaphor. Lately I’ve been reflecting upon 2009, what a hell

Anyways, I’ve been reflecting lately on 2009 as I’ve mention. The only word I can find to describe it is C H A O S. As year’s go by I find myself realizing that life is getting harder. Ugh. More things are being thrown into your life… its like.. I guess in comparison to playing video games. You have level 1, level 2 ….etc. And its just like that I’m finding. I don’t know I’m probably in level 1974397328470234782734327847032. Haha at times it seems like its THAT complicated. So, I’m positive I’ve not the only one that I have been through stuff, and therefore I will speal on and bore you for a good however long it takes you to read this. Please feel free to leave comments- would love to hear what obstacles you overcame!

Self reflection...

CHOICES –

There are so many things I wish I could have changed. There are so many times I say “I could of…” just done something different. Whether it had been saying something earlier, or making an action. What make 2009 chaotic that influence choices? Well… I’d have to say:

-Studies: is definitely one of them… I choose to slack last year. Had some family issues going on, which seems more important to me than learning about Newton’s Law in Physiques. Like that was gonna solve the problem. Anyhows, definitely had a stressful semester, physiques, mathematiques, biologie and French. Very poor result of a semester. Which is currently biting me in the arse because when applying to uni’s they can CLEARLY see your grade 11 embarrassing marks. Ugh, this is one of those moments where I would say “you were right” to my parents. And get the natural “I told you so” response from them.

FRIENDS

-this one, I have to say was the hardest thing i dealt with last year. It came to a weird point between my friends and I. We suddenly “went our separate ways” and it was like (wait a minute…I thought we were suppose to say goodbye at grad! ) well I don’t know. Friendship as I’ve mention before is a hard relationship. I’ve meet a lot of people last year that were good influences, some that were really bad influences and many that was just time to say goodbye to. The thing that sucks the most about friendship, is when you get to a point in the relationship with that person that you see the “I don’t care anymore” just sucks. What could of changed? Well I guess my naiveness- me believing, no no its okay, its just a bad day. Which turned into, no its just a bad week for the person, into a , its just a bad month for the person. I guess I found myself making excuses to hang on to something that wasn’t there anymore or fading away at least.

STRESS

-I never believed doctors when they told you Stress isn’t good for your health. I guess I had one of those “I’ll believe it when I see it” momento’s. haha and surely I did. I collapse for a good 16 hours. I’ll admit it- it was the best sleep of the semester lol, felt really good. But concerned the hell out of lots of people. I guess I was stupid, I thought I could handle physiques, bio, math and French with 6 clubs and 3 sports teams. Haha good thing Maggie wasn’t around then. What did I learn from this idiotic mistake? Well, drugs, alcohol and smoking don’t mix at all. No im kidding, fail metaphor (note: I don’t what so ever do those things) anyhow, just take it easy, I guess “friends” believed that I could do anything, that I started to believe that myself. I felt like I didn’t need to worry and ignored the people who cared about me. Which was another idiotic mistake. Moral of the story: sleep is main priority above all

EXPECTATIONS

Too much. I’m starting to see a good domino pattern as I’m writing this. I expected too much from myself to give back to others. From all the commitments I made, I ended up failing to meet those expectations because ¼ of me was being divided into so many places. I guess I should have really stopped when my family expected me to do dishes, clean the house, make dinner and keep my studies up that I was pathetically selfish enough to think I could do all those and sports team and clubs. I guess I tried to build myself a wonder woman.

BOYS, BOYS, BOYS!

And they say woman are complicated species. I beg to differ!

Yeah I gotta say 2009, hell of a guy drama year. Too many intertwined conflicts that caused MUCH unessairy and avoidable drama. A lot of sleepless nights, tears, head aches and heart breaks. But sometimes, it comes to the right time to –say goodbye, when we know we gotta go our separate ways- [ oh man, some Christ brown lyrics. Anyways] I guess what I’ve learnt is how to deal with situations better. How to deal with people as in growing patience for others (still working on that ) and dealing with myself. Boys, boys, boys…definitely leant how to see through B.S, lies and experience deceit. I think guys are the hardest lesson to learn from because you never know when it will happen again. *sigh* I’ll stop here..

TODAY –LEARNING TO SAY “NO”

Well I now reflect on where I am today. Have I REALLY learnt my lesson ? Well I guess its safe to say, yes I have. We are 4 months into a new school year. Things definitely were at a rough start but… picked it up and found a motivation. I must say, second chances in life are the greatest. If you ever get a second chance in life be grateful for it. I guess I have learnt a lot over the last year, I learnt

- Don’t please others, for their sake

- People will leave you behind and use you just for their benefit

- Learn to say “no”

- Make sure you get your 8 hrs of sleep

- Make sure to read fine prints when things seem to be “too good to be true”

- Appreciate family

- Be thankful for a new day

- Regret nothing.

WHAT TO LOOK FORWARD TO:

- The end of a very long stage in life . Graduation. At last

- Summer days

- Meeting new people [accomplished]

- Following an inspiration

- Challenges in school studies

- Having more fun, be more outgoing

- Learning patience: acceptance/consideration/rejection letters

I definitely have learnt to prioritize my life in order and for that I’ve improved much as a person and in school. Life definitely is challenging, but its worth to learn and put up a good fight. Even the best fall down.

-NEW MOON-NEW START-NEW YEAR-

I hope you reflect and learnt from your mistakes, none so should be regretful but… just a lesson.

HAPPY NEW YEAR.

w. love

célina

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Travel Aspiration: Italy

" Hola "

> Spanish greetings to all

Well I'm back... LOL few hours later and yeah ....fail. Didn't finish that english assignment... Northrop Frye bored me to death. And don't get me started on that size 2 font essay >.<"

Anyhows, credit of the next topic goes to

-Andrew- Journey : Aspirations

We all have aspirations in life... short aspirations or long term futur goals


What are your aspirations ?

For the longest time my aspiration has been to get accepted in university. But more importantly to travel. My aspiration in life is to open an art gallery one day, filled with photos from travels around the world. Now the percentage of that actually happening..... not so likely due to the chances of it being a bad investment... But hey I can always start with a portfolio , for now at least: ) I would love to travel around the world, but specifically my aspiration is to visit one particular country and basically never leave it...

ITALY

[for those who read this and are against the country due to sport games or such or bad experiences yeah i mean nothing offense. ] There is so much about Italy ...it is such an interesting country. Now, you are probably wondering how I've grown an obsession with the country ? Well , it all started when I visited Paris... now that was a beautiful city . A little dangerous but great! Definitely a place to visit. Im a big fan of the cooking channel (food network) I dont know, its very interesting, they have chefs from ALL different backgrounds so you can learn such as... french cusine, Jamaicain, americain, etc... but then there was this one particular chef, David Rocco. Now this italian chef just ... was so differnt. He wasn't placed in a studio with shiny pans and pre made food ready. But instead his show was based on him in Italy. (Now this happened before all the other chef fleed to the world like Chef Abroad...etc) anyhows. David Rocco was the start to my passion and love for the country. His cooking show featured him going around Italy and he would educate people on where are good places to go, and locals to visit and markets and stuff like that... Now for his cooking, he make SUPER easy food. For exemple: cooked spaghetti and lemon juice and lemon zest THATS IT! [f'real when I watched it I was like... no way... can't be Italians can't just eat that...etc total denial ] I then thought Italians were just weird... I mean pizza that just has tomatoes, olive oil, mozerella and basil... I'm like... in comparisson to the luxury we have here to get a good 5 toppings and 2 Ibs of cheese etc... that just shocked me! This whole time I was in love with the North American version of Italian food.. This whole time I loved the complex Italian food...etc. Its just like Chinese food,the North American version of "Chicken Balls" with Sweet and Sour sauce...yeah you will NEVER find that in Asia. Sorry. Anyhows... going on. So what else did I learn from David Rocco? Well his show took place in Italy. Now at the time he stayed in Florence. And he stayed in a apartment...not all day and you didn't see just little lemon tree and herb garden, but he went out to the market, found some great bargains and make great SIMPLE dishes. As well... you saw ITALY itself. He didn't just stay in Florence but he traveld ALL different provinces of Italy and he made /showed different dishes from all different provinces, like ravioli, and seafood from the south and soups from the central...etc! It was AMAZING!!! I kid you not. the sight seeings that were shown in Italy were AMAZING! They were astounding and breath taking regardless of the province. For exemple: he would attend parties at Villa’s on the mountain and the view of the city and the ocean were just beautiful ! or in Tuscany, the view of vineyards and gold fields….. enriching.

And then, another chef, Chef Jamie Oliver from the UK, he explored Italy afterwards, he visited really small cities and it was just AMAZING to see. I mean he met locals that were friendly and it is like any other country there will be many not so friendly people but regardless, his journey was great to see. He went to one school because he wants to change the school food system in the UK which currently serves burgers, fries and stuff….so when he went to Italy he was amazed at how food is such a big part of their lives. The importance of food is preserved. Anyhows, he visited an elementary school and I kid you not. They served to the children everyday a very well nutricious food, a bowl of pasta made fresh everyday, a side of apple and carton of milk. Now you’re probably like….. so? These kids (he went to a grade 1 class) were fed whole meals every day. As well he tested if they knew their vegetables etc… it was just so different to see.

ANYWAYS! Okay so .... love for Italian food. Check.

Who else did he show. Well of course when talking to the locals he would speak Italian. And oh my goodness it is one language. As well, Italy is a great place filled with friendly people and fun stuff. Afterwards, after the whole David Rocco phase cooking show. He came out with a sound track. Hahaha of course, I scan across all malls for his CD. The musique was soooo different. I mean no offense, I love Lady Gaga musique and Jay-Z as much as the next person but this was BEAUTIFUL DIFFERENT! It was FOREIGN. That was the beauty of it. So like all food network songs, they have like techno , up beat musique. Then I search the web…well there are bound to me more Italian artists? Search the web, Youtube helped a lot. And found MANY other AMAZING artists. Oh my goodness! It was like discovering a new island! Italian musique I must say is by far my favourite! I mean ….just the PASSION they have when they sing, the LANGUAGE of it is mesmerizing and the LYRICS are sooo POETIC! [ no I didn’t not find some 60 year old musician] there are many young artists that are AMAZING. I think as well that just makes ANY foreign musique wonderful is the unknown. I mean you listen to ANY foreign musique, Japanese, germain, Italian, French….etc and you listen to it and just wonder what can they be talking about that makes them have so much passion for it. and you fall in love with the rhythm, the instruments used, and then the melody and once you have finally translated on Google those lyrics its just magnificent.

Italian musique. Check. Here are some great places to check out when going to Italy. Its DEFINITELY the place to go for photography or great food (actually great food is found everywhere! That is the beauty of food, food is just …. Amazing I mean, its so different. Everyday ingredients found anywhere and make UNLIMITED combinations) Tangeant. Sorry.

As I was saying…
- Verona -->A must! There is a movie coming out next year (2010) featured in this city. This is the city known for the romantic love story of Romeo and Juliet
- Milan-->BEAUTIFUL cathedral and lots of shopping, is like a California?
- Genoa--> surrounded by the ocean this place is SPECTACULAR for breath taking sights from mountains - Turino-->fantastic place to go Snowboarding! Or skiing, and near Swiss
- Venice-->the famous romantic gandola’s and the narrow streets/markets this place is spectacular for photography or archectures and angles
- Tuscany-->gold fields, vineyards…need I say more?
- Rome-->rich history and breath taking monuments from centuries back
- Florence-->this place is wonderful! Get your Camera
- Capri--> Two words: Almafi Coast. Stunning!!!! Over view of the ocean… Google the pictures.
- -Sicily--> Love seafood? Head to the southern! Surrounded by the ocean Im sure there are MANY loads of GREAT places to visit…Heck I’d name all the provinces… but these are just some of the places that I have heard more popular.

Anyhows…. I apologize for this unexplicable obsession, but honestly when you fall in love with a country for its culture, everything and you do research upon it…its just magnificent! I mean other great countries are France, Japan, Dubai …ETC!!!!

Again I pose, What are you aspirations?

The world is TRULY filled with AMAZING places and there is SO much to be discovered! Stay open minded and discover. It is a GREAT journey to be explored.

w/ love
Célina
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Journey Food: Smoothie

" Nihao ! "

>Cantonese/ Mandarin Greetings =) [I guess you can say its...the word of the day ? ] Anyhows...

Woke up this morning...better than yesterday. No nightmares of death nor failing exams... the weirdest things ever... o_o
Turned out ...my regular routine of getting at 7:30am didn't work out... turned out to be 10:55 am o_O; (no more late nights I guess... ) Not bad of a morning I can say... It's December... I can see the grass from my window, sun's out... -15 degrees... really not bad for North American Weather. Then ... thought I was off to a great morning... no. not really... Walked into my other room and found stacks of binders on my desk . With a big reminder..bolded...in highlighter... "ENGLISH" -_-"
(dam)
*sigh*
It's wednesday ... can't procrastinate any longer! (yeah right.... )
Walk downstairs, greet Maggie (my puppie :) ) turn on the laptop...check daily emails...msn... Youtube account...thinking of a new blog entry ... (wasted a good 45 minutes there) There we go. We are now in the

[i've always wondered... I wanted to start a "procrastination" competition... wonder how that would out ... *dun dun dunnn]
Anyhows... I now have my english in front of me. Just there........ starring....... pages waiting to be opened and read.... (booooo!)
If you're wondering why I'm making a big deal of this...well... if its reading fine. but.. this is .,... the one........the only......... Northrop Frye! >.< " *sour face*

Yes... my assignment due in a few days... is comparing "the vocation of elequance" (what the heck is vocation) =S

Vocation: –noun

1.	a particular occupation, business, or profession; calling.

2.	a strong impulse or inclination to follow a particular activity or career.

3.	a divine call to God's service or to the Christian life.

4.	a function or station in life to which one is called by God: the religious vocation; the vocation of marriage. http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/vocation

not bad of an essay .... until...you have to compare it to "Inherit the Wind" (not bad of a book.... is no more than 50 pages? ) But then ...... the worst...... compare it ALSO (bolded) with ANOTHER (bolded) ESSAY! *dun dun dunnn * now....this last essay...is size 2 font. I kid you not. If i could scan the sheet and show you ..... *sigh* you'd understand =)

Not required to read 1.....not 2.....but 3 things! And make this nice artsy-stuff to explain it in SIMPLE terms... how am suppose to do that when i dont undertstand half of the words? I'd be probably replicating a dictionairy.... *Idea* [not bad.......maybe I could just hand in a dictionairy..... *hmmmm...... ]


No. okay. don't take the short cut. university acceptance DEPENDS on this! *dramatic voice*

Alright.... enough complaining.

If any of you EVER get stuck with an english assignmnent..... I kid you not...the best food to eat is a SMOOTHIE!

Yes.... this blog is the Journey Food: Smoothie. [credit: this idea of posting a recipe is from -Andrew- ] Thanks for the advice!!!

About 2 hours later of wasting the morning on procrastinating... I make a smoothie ^_^
Came out excellent. I shall tell you why ...

If you love Wild Berry kind of smoothies...try this...

- Add Strawberry Yogurt
-Add frozen Wild Berries (mix of raspberries, blueberries, strawberries ..in one bag!)

Blend it in a blender.

Taste when you have a smooth texture...

*now. if it is too tangy from the berries....add a banana. Start with half of a banana...see if you like the mix. I find that banana's a great fruit to neutralize strong tastes like tang. =)


Test it out. Try it.

Its the perfect Journey Food

Welps. I'll blog later after I start english.

Take Care!!

w/love

Célina
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Friendship

" Allô, "

>yes french greetings =) Mainly Québecquoise french...

Is meeting new people the best part of growing up?

Having that "social status" amongst others?
Have people influenced you?

If so, were they positive or negative influences?

I believe that the people on socializes with determines their personality. Its quite weird. no sorry, I'm weird. haha,
going into personal stuff, I've moved to 6 different school in my life and meet a alot of people. The outcome? Weirdness. haha.

I must say that "FRIENDS" is the most complex relationship ever. Some would disagree...."nooo its relationships" on the contrary...relationships are easy...its like matching socks together...you either get along or you dont. Its either love or lust. But friendship..oh man, its can get just AS complicated as a relationships...you have "backstabber" kind of friends, you got gossipers, you got "friends with benefits", you got good friends, you got mood friends, you got insecure friends, you got arrogant friends, you got smart friends.... I think you get the point right? So imagine one is dropped in this crowd of friends... how will one become?

I must say, from my experience in being dropped in this mush for crowd you become absolutely ... weird. A good weird. A different weird. A weird that no one within the crowd will understand because you have gotten to know people from all different backgrounds.

Personal story, I've have few friends growing up... some of which were not so nice, new school, new friends.... nicer... new school, new friends, somewhat nice.. *skip to high school* new school for 4 years, new friends... so called "best" friends. This is what I dont understand this till day...is how a friendship that was so strong just fall apart so easily! Imagine drawing a painting on a canvas for hours, days, months, years... and... water gets on it for a second, and its gone. smudged. dripped. blended. Its a complete different art form. Unreconizable...

I dont know about you, I know you've have lots of personal experiences, heck if you have a great friendship cherish it.
(If you think I'm being a tad-smidge dramatique, I pre-warned you...this is the complex- journey ) haha.

But yeah... friendship is quite interesting. I regret not letting the closes people to me not knowing how much I valued their compagnionship. After friendship comes regret. Actually.....after ANYTHING it seems regret is some form of filling that gap of feelings between ... happiness and loneliness. We think so much of the past that we forget the present. We replace the present with regret. That is what regret it.... (that i think..please correct me if I’m wrong.)

Have you ever heard the saying “when one door closes, another one opens”

That right now is reflecting my life. Friendship is hard for me. I’ve lost all the closes people I’ve had, and without them knowing….they thought I was just weird…an outcast of a sudden…we lost communication, we barely speak..its that ackward stage of.. “hi.. so …….whats new? …………………oh nothing really? Aw well I guess I’ll…..talk to you laters?....bye.”

You know…. How do you go from that conversation from talking ALL night to the person. Telling them every detail of your life.

Before I bore you to death, I close with a positive ending…

Today my beginning has begun! [yay….only 10 minutes of boring vending do I come to a start] Yes. No more of me regretting anything. Today I have meet a new friend it’s a new start. Ahaha, my friend is from the States. We spent 2 hours constantly talking about this Italian boy band like we were 10 year old’s obsessed with the Jonas Brothers. Yeah…that bad. But it was good. It was a great beginning to a new friendship, to a new futur.

Sometimes I find that… when Im low on situations that happen now… I think about things that happen out there in the world.

The world is so much bigger than us, there are bigger problems than our own… and just maybe sometimes, meeting someone knew, whether its down the street, at a café, foreign country…a change in person in the crowd will restore a new painting. Maybe adding colour to the canvas, or a new perspective on idea. Regardless, I really hope that for all you out there reading this… find your happiness… if you’re not happy with your “social status” remember…there are 6+ BILLION people in the world, someone is bound to have the same interest as you and who knows…. Possibly give you that beginning in an undiscovered journey.

w/ love

célina

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