Insomnia

"Dia Duit"
>Greetings from Ireland!

Yes I'm back from relatives....alive!Well... partially. Came back around 10. Then, planned on going to bed. Yeah right...that didn't work out. Couldn't sleep. Can you believe it? the day before going back to school....back to reality, the most important sleep of my 2 lazy weeks, and I couldn't sleep! Well then, not to worry, I worked productively in those times, wrote 4 poems... listened to some Italian musique, then had a crisis! My ipod broke! Or something.... you see, I can't fall asleep without listening to Italian musique...I guess its like a lullaby? haha cheeezy. But anyways. Yeah so after writing 4 poems, and texted a bit, turned on the ipod (I warn you this happend 3 hours later, so it was literally 1 am. ) then, the ipod played a bit... suddenly it froze! DARN GOODNESS! tried to reset it... didn't work. Tried to smash it... still didn't work. Few minutes later... it goes blank! Black screen! ARRRGGGHHH! I was pretty pissed off. Anyhows, turned on the radio and fell asleep eventually.

So, how was the time at my relatives? Well... I gotta say...it was a first. Of all years that my relatives come from Australia, never have we ever, sat 14 at a table. Yeah....it turned out to be some kind of reunion? o_O"

Not bad , as most would say, heck they say to appreciate...well, it wasn't like any ordinairy gatherings. You see.... I had to drive there for one! Hahah, did i mention I hate driving? Well... WINTER driving!! Especially and hour and a half away, got some crazy people on the roads, cutting into your lane, UGH the nightmare.I've drove to the parallel universe. Entered a strange city.... the city where there are endless restaurants with chinese or viet or korean characters... The hotels around... Hilton. The housings? More than 500,000- 1,000 000 at least for cost...and the cars? Lots of mercedes and Nissans. Almost a déjà vu to Caledon really, were students drive to school in Hummers and ferraries for the least. Finally got there...alive! :] Was welcomed by 3 Australian coursins, awwe there's so cute with their little Australian accents! Entered... not much has changed at my aunts... still the large house. Immediately, "would you like some food!" Didnt' even take my shoes off and already I was offered baked goods! Wait a minute... Did I say baked? yeah.... my aunt and her family..NEVER cook. They do, but RARE. Otherwise its all asian take out...so that was strange. They baked. Wasn't too bad Im alive aren't I?
Anyhows... an hour later, my other cousin came back. She was rushing at the store for last minute school supplies for a project...Yeah due the next day. haha, she's bound to learn one day. So my cousin came...looked totally different. She was heavy on the makeup this time, fliped out her blackberry and quietly greeted. Did I mention this cousin is spoiled? She has a Queen size bed to herself, a 27" flat screen HD television, cordless phone, sound system, a mini fridge, a blackberry and a MACBPЯO! oh yeah...those are all in her own room and seperate grand piano. she's 14. -_-" Here I am thinking to myself i'm begging for a job, to save money for a darn blackberry! I'm going frantique for scholarships to afford a MACBPЯO! Here...a 14 year old with a car waiting in the garage for her...Aieyah. Definitely, need to handle my fanicials much wiser. Anyhows... few hours later... more long lost relatives showed and my sister :] Not bad...it happened as I mentioned it would be. the greetings, the smiles...and the interrrogations. Yeah got alot of "What are you planning on doing with your life?" "Have you considered being a doctor?" Etc.... Ugh, family gatherings feel like updating people on gossip. [ sorry i'm being quite pissimistic about this ... I forgot how proper gatherings were]
So my aunt attempted to cook. Wait, my uncle took over and made steaks, yeah not her husband. the guest. haha, not that bad, he cooked it quite excellent. Then my other aunty pitched in....store box mashed potato. Oh boy, there's a first for everything right? Well... my first time trying instant potatoes! =P My job? Help make sushi. Again first time trying it...not that bad. Later on, my aunt brought over Italian homemade Tiramisu. Definitely, didn't know what to think. She for one, NEVER cooks. I'm not going to lie, I was frighten to try. I mean.. I've seen it lots of time on the food network, seems simple enough...
My sister whisperes "Whats in it?" I reply.. "Its suppose to be [keyword:suppose] soaked lady finger cookies in STRONG coffee, and then some cream topping goes on top...and you keep layering it." She headed for the frozen cheesecake. Well, my aunt insisted I tried, because she heard how I was the cook at home. [dam it, why did someone have to tell! I mean... for one, I DONT DRINK COFFEE! let alone having a cake...with STRONG coffee.. -_- " ] I had no excuses [heck she sat beside me] .... So how was the cake? Well...a few things... I found myself digging for lost cookies in the cream. Seriously couldn't find it... I was going to question if she even put any. Then... [first time for everything, i tried coffee] Oh boy. Terrible experience, first bit....couldn't swallow it...the smell of it stinged. But i turned to her, mouth full and smiled "Its great!" she was relieved. Heck, the dessert turned out to be a success [not for me, nor my sister of course] but..for her husband for one. He took the half of it and promised to eat it all, because apparently that was the best thing she's ever cooked. Well... at least some people enjoyed it. Later on, my cousin was going on about how to work a Blackberry, what is what. How is it done. And then, continued to inform me on the MACBPRO. Then we took photos with the younger cousins and next thing you know... it was 9 o'clock. Hallelujah!
Time to go. got a good 1 1/2 hours of driving back. Before we leave though, we were insisted on taking anything we wanted... heck was that Macbook available? She already had 2 other computers. Just kiddding. My aunt gave us a, I kid you not. A "Little Red Robbin Hood" basket...wait. Did I mention it was a LARGE basket of left over stuff... like choc. boxes, ferraro choc, etc...all leftovers.. But lastly, red envelops for Chinese New Years. [Gosh, she gives it now because she probably knows we won't be coming back for a LOOOONG time. Btw/ Chinese new years in febuary. hahaha and she was giving that now. I was never good at reading in between the lines..but this one I caught on too] What are red eveloppes? Well here is the BEAUTY of being Chinese. The perks of Chinese traditions... each year, family memeber gives teh youngest in the family [all] money. Its to symbolize, good luck, fortune, for the NEW year. Anyhows... the other Beauty of it, is the timing they give it... I mean, here are ...After December you're broke. haha, and you know it. Spending all that money on gifts or Boxing Day. and you're starting a new year with no money left...then comes Chinese New Years... an enveloppe filled with money [donations from EVERY aunt, uncle, grandparents...etc] and basically you have a net loss of 0 >: )


Today.

What a heck day. French... meh wasn't too bad learnt "Le Gerontif" rule. English.... killed me. Read -Northrop Frye- on the first day of return!!! I mean.... he literally FRIED my brain today ... The -Keys of Dreamland- ... its I think interesting? After few pages in and I zoned out... remember I was up pretty late. Then biology,... looked forward to it at first,....yes, we were gonna learn about the Endocrine Syste [sarcastic yay] My friend announced she got an early acceptance to Waterloo. Congrats to her. then he was give back our Reasearch papers. So 2 months ago we wrote a good 8-10 Research Paper on a subject. And .... this was frigging important. worth 10% of your grade... which can REEEALY help people [like myself] to bring up their marks. So i'm going up there...enthusided and thought... well whats the worst that can happen. Everyone that was told their marks all looked fairly happy... positive comments. and then I was my turn. My heart raced. and I couldn't stop thinking "UNIVERSITY ACCEPTANCE DEPENDS ON THIS!" [I swear, any random tangeant moment...thats all that comes to mind =/ ] It was finally my turn...a hope of bringing my Bio mark up...at last!!! I was disappointed. So you would think that failing the paper would be bad right? Whats JUST as bad, is getting near the same mark as your average. THE SAME!!! ALL THAT BLUDDDY HARD WORK AND FOR WHAT.... PAR!!!!!
Yeah, I was REAALLLLY pissed off [I dont know if it was from my lack of sleep? or hearing that my friend got accepted early btw. she has an 85+ average...] I was screwed! My last hope ...and he PARS my average! [Golf term for -even- ] UGH!!! What was I gonna do... I was devistated. Depressed even! hahaha, So for the next 40 minutes of copying down notes... I thought... SOlution...gotta find a solution.... debated over whether or not I was gonna apply for night school and upgrade my mark. Ugh seemed hte only way... I mean, there isn't any way I can just magically get up a good 15-20 % higher in my mark increase... I was screwed! Exams are in 3 weeks....and I was NOT content with my mark. The bell rung. Hallelujah. Needed some air. Went to the guidance office and picked up the forms... found out... Night school.... was 30 more away by driving. 2 hours per every second night.... What was I gonna do!! Next sem. Math, Chem and religion... I guess I could take it.. But what if I get assignments and labs? I'd lose 2 hours + 1 hour to commute for Night School.... It was that ... or have a slim chance of getting into university. Why did he have to mark so hard and give me Par. Why did bio have to be so cruel!!! I was going insane. (clearly)

These I think that I have developped are further symptoms of insomnia. Well... spent a good hour at the guidance office. could use someone to talk too, then this guy shows up. A school alumni. He totally made my day. Turned out he's schooling at my old hometown up North [north as in 16 hours away] Definitely cheered me up, the guidance counsellor was poking jokes at him and I eventually forgot all about the bio crisis. Kept asking him .."OMGSH! did you have this there....did you try thsi... how are you adjusting to only living with ONE high way and ONE mall." hahah,

Well I gotta say, days are totally unexpected. Sometimes meeting new people or seeing a friendly face can cheer you up. Thats probably all of my update. If you're still conscious and reading this...then, congrats!And..
thank you .

Take Care, Marie. C